• 14:27 Awwww shiiit I'm on a boat motherfucker!! #
• 18:30 'I grip your hand so hard my knuckles turn white, when you clear the streets and kill the lights' <3 Katatonia #
• 19:10 Amaretto & cream soda is a seriously amazing drink #
• 21:39 Winter olympics > summer olympics. It's like the X games with snow =D #

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I. Music (BOLD THE ONES YOU LISTEN TO)

Acceptance. Coldplay. Dave Matthews Band. David Bowie. Foo Fighters. Hellogoodbye. The Killers. James Blunt. Teddy Geiger. Linkin Park. Muse. Ok Go. Panic! At The Disco. Peter Bjorn. The Postal Service. Timbaland. Jack Johnson. Norah Jones. The Fray. The Wreckers. Keith Urban. Michael Buble. Beyonce. Metallica. Massive Attack. Queen. Journey. The Cars. Supertramp. Tracy Chapman. Eurythmics. Sublime. The Red Hot Chili Peppers. Wu-tang Clan. Fergie. Sarah McLachlan. John Mayer. Jason Mraz. Justin Timberlake. Michael Jackson. Howie Day. Kenny Chesney. Carrie Underwood. Neil Young. The Beatles. Brad Paisley. Tim McGraw. Keith Anderson. Taylor Swift. Blake Shelton. P. Diddy. Jay Z. Lil’ Wayne. Lil’ John. Three 6 Mafia. Nelly. Young Joc. T.I. Sean Paul. 50 Cent. Eiffel 65. Ace of Base. The Underdog Project. Dream Theater. Santana. Alicia Keys. Incubus. Victor Wooten. Ludacris. Gorillaz. Matchbox 20. Paramore. Taking Back Sunday. Eric Clapton. The Darkness. Weezer. The Eagles. Jimi Hendrix. Nirvana. Smashing Pumpkins. Theory of a Deadman. Tenacious D. Third Eye Blind. Metro Station. Motion City Soundtrack. The Rocket Summer. Something Corporate. Maroon 5. Billy Joel. Reel Big Fish. Anberlin. Mae. Jurassic 5. AC/DC. Hootie and the Blowfish. Electric Six. Outkast. R.E.M. The White Stripes.

I bolded all bands I have an album by on my iPod. Which doesn't really mean I listen to them but otherwise I'd have bolded 3 bands, lol.

II. Movies (BOLD THE ONES YOU’VE SEEN)

Pride and Prejudice.* Glory Road. The Princess Bride. Goonies. Center Stage. Ocean’s Eleven. Seven. Newsies. 300. Robin Hood Men In Tights. Love Actually. Garden State. Donnie Darko. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. My Best Friend’s Wedding. Anchorman. Drop Dead Gorgeous. Wedding Crashers. Elf. Zoolander. Austin Powers. Clueless. Mean Girls. Hairspray. Moulin Rouge. Fight Club. Rocky. Pulp Fiction. What A Girl Wants. Kill Bill. Thank You For Smoking. Little Miss Sunshine. Requiem for a Dream. The Departed. Dawn of the Dead. Memento. Office Space. Snakes on a Plane. Boondock Saints. Say Anything. The Silence of the Lambs. Saving Private Ryan. Superbad. The Prestige. Just Friends. The Devil Wears Prada. Under the Tuscan Sun. Titanic. Steel Magnolias. Saw. Ace Ventura. She’s the Man. Because I Said So. Catch and Release. Music and Lyrics. Spanglish. Stick It. Step Up. The Fast and the Furious. Joyride. Halloween.** The Italian Job. Crash***. Must Love Dogs. The Last Kiss. Chicago. Harry Potter. Rush Hour. Breakfast at Tiffany’s. Clerks. Shooter. The Bourne Identity. Meet the Parents. Dirty Dancing. A Christmas Story. Rudy. National Treasure. Sleepless in Seattle. Miss Congeniality. The Science of Sleep. The Matrix. Everything is Illuminated. Good Will Hunting. Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure. Empire Records. Phantom of the Opera. Lord of the Rings.

*The black and white version though, not the one with Kiera Knightley
**I wasn't paying attention while I watched this so I don't remember the plot but I do have it on DVD
***Bought this, haven't got round to watching it yet. Want to though

III. TV (BOLD THE ONES YOU’VE WATCHED MORE THAN A COUPLE OF TIMES)

ER. Grey’s Anatomy. Saved by the Bell. Man vs. Wild. Scrubs. South Park. America’s Next Top Model. Gossip Girl. Sex and the City. Friends. Dawson’s Creek. The Big Bang Theory. Seinfeld. The Office. Lost. Miami Ink. Made. Arrested Development. That 70’s Show. Family Guy. The Simpsons. Veronica Mars. Project Runway. Bones. Iron Chef. Alias. Pushing Daisies. Gilmore Girls. The Colbert Report. The Daily Show. Mythbusters. Avatar: The Last Airbender. Will and Grace. 24. House. To Catch A Predator. Whistler. Heroes. Aqua Teen Hunger Force. Unsolved Mysteries. 7th Heaven. Everybody Loves Raymond. Private Practice. Boston Legal. Bleach. What I Like About You. Reba. King of Queens. Survivor. The O.C. American Idol. Days of Our Lives. How I Met Your Mother. Boy Meets World. CSI. Law and Order. Numbers. Reno 911. I Love New York. Step by Step. Little People Big World. What Not To Wear. My Wife and Kids. Moonlight. Nip/Tuck. The Biggest Loser. Beauty and the Geek. Battlestar Galactica. Stargate SG1. The Inferno. Scarred. Wild N Out. Real World. Whose Line is it Anyway? Trinity Blood. Dead Like Me. Dragon Ball Z. Futurama. Firefly.* Ripley’s Believe it or Not. Medium. Star Trek. X-Files. Cowboy BeBop. Sailor Moon. My Name is Earl. Six Feet Under. Dancing With The Stars. Degrassi. Greek. Glee. Secret Life of the American Teenager. One Tree Hill.

*Why don't I watch this?

Aaaaand that tells you most everything you need to know about me.

Music is so important to me, but it's not the be all and end all. I hated my ex's taste for the most part, as he mine, and I always hated that we didn't have more music in common. But ultimately there were a lot of other reasons we didn't gel. When I was a kid I always saw my parents listening to music together and going out to see bands together, so I've always wanted to have that with my romantic partners as well. I just love to listen to and talk about my favourite music...ultimately I guess it would just suck for my partner if he didn't like what I was into, because he'd still have to put up with it!

Ahhhhhhhh!!

The gigs were astounding.

We were on the barrier both nights.

They have a new guiarist since Helldone but he is hot as well, and looks a lot younger =P [ETA: This is kinda complicated, but actually this particular guitarist WAS in the band last time, BUT we weren't on his side, we were on the other guitarist's side who HAS now been replaced...]

The lights & dry ice looked fantastic.

They were filming both nights.

Setlists:
Night 1
Shroud
Straight to the Light
Trees Come Down
For Her Light
Endemoniada
Penetration
Wail of Sumer
And there will your heart be also
Shine
Psychonaut
*
From the Fire
Moonchild
*
Mourning Sun

Night 2
Harmonica Man
Preacher Man
From the Fire
Penetration
Moonchild
Reqiuem
Xiberia
Dawnrazor
The Sequel
The Watchman
Mourning Sun
*
Zoon III
Last Exit for the Lost
*
Celebrate

2 encores both nights, yep yep. adgsagfgasdjfgsdka 'Peneration' twice, and 'Mourning Sun'! 'Shine', 'Xiberia', 'Zoon III' (!!!), 'Last Exit For The Lost', 'Dawnrazor', 'And There Will Your Heart Be Also' (!!!) agdhgshfjkaksg...amazing!!

2nd night was better in a lot of ways. Just me and my mum (no Jeff), we had a sit down since we were by the barrier, we had a couple of beers, the sound was louder since we were closer to the speaker stacks, AND we had a lil wishlist of songs they hadn't played the 1st night AND THEY DID EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM =D =D More songs we knew generally.

So, this isn't much of a review.

But it's hard to put into words.

It was just an amazing experience.

And I'm glad I was there.

And hot guitarist is hot.

...is very good!

I don't understand, though, why 'I Will Possess Your Heart' is the lead-off single. It's the worst on the album. Now I am into my fair share of progressive bands so an 8-minute song is not an instant turn-off for me. But there just isn't enough substance in this one to justify the length. Lyrically it's particularly weak. Musically it is growing on me I must admit. But it's the kind of thing that's inoffensive as background music. Fans are defending it as 'complex', but...it really isn't. It's very simple, and so it feels sprawling and self-indulgent.

Track one 'Bixby Canyon Bridge' almost suffers the same fate, but it has enough going on to escape more or less unscathed. Death Cab have never been about long songs, though, and while I can understand experimentation, I think they should have started smaller.

When Death Cab are keeping themselves more in check, though, Narrow Stairs is pretty killer. 'No Sunlight' is punchy and melodic, instantly hooks you in and then ends. Really effective way to leave you wanting more. Next song 'Cath...' is also a very good indie/pop song, lightweight and it sounds good.

'Talking Bird' is a little dull. Then 'You Can Do Better Than Me' is again incredibly short. I sense a theme of contrasts going on in this album, long/short, slow and brooding/lightweight and upbeat, epic/disposable. I do like that idea but some parts work better than others.

'Grapevine Fires' is a very nice track, and 'Your New Twin-Sized Bed' is the emotional punch of the album, a relatively simple lyric but delivered with Gibbard's usual finesse to make it a starkly depressing moment.

'Pity And Fear' has a riff in it that's bordering on metal, which coming from Death Cab was a real shocker.

All in all I think Narrow Stairs is strong, definitely worth your time if you can get past the occasional self-indulgence. One thing I would say is that I don't think it's as ground-breaking as reviews have been claiming. Especially on the more lightweight songs, Death Cab are really not treading much new ground here. But why change a good thing, right? So check it out!

Watershed. It leaked, and I downloaded it. Yes, I am a bad person, blah blah blah.

So far, I am not enthused. Am only on track 3, but basically it is way too Dream Theater for me. I like DT, but, ya know, I'd put on one of their albums if I wanted Hammond organs and proggy lead guitars.

There are heavier sections, which is good.

But the songs lack cohesion. Opeth has always been about quick changes, switching up tempo and volume, but they have always done it well. On Ghost Reveries, their last album, the longer tracks just flow without you even realising that the music is constantly shifting, growing, expanding till it's 10 minutes later that the song ends, and you still want more. Watershed, so far, isn't doing that.

As soon as track 1 started though, I didn't like it. Starting with this folksy bit where the vocal melody was just horrible. And I like my albums to start with a punch, quite frankly. So I don't think opening with an accoustic section was the way to go, boys.

So the first two tracks, there were good bits but they were passed over too quickly in favour of these meandering folksy sections and, like I said, a lot of the lead work is suspiciously Dream Theater-esque. It feels like the heavy parts are just there as filler, and they're way too choppy. Opeth always knew how to keep a good riff going, now it feels like they're trying so hard to feel 'progressive' that the song writing is suffering. Like they are rejecting melody and catchy hooks and trying to be 'difficult'.

And track 3 is just mid-tempo and boring, quite frankly.

We'll see if it gets any better...

ETA: It didn't =/

Also, Chris totally stood me up today! Last night we made plans to go clothes shopping, and he never showed up hahaha. My guess is he was up all night on campus, then went home and fell asleep =P I'm not pissed off at all because I was in town for milkshake with Sara anyway, so when I texted him and he didn't reply I just went home. It's weirdly fun, I've never been stood up before Lol =P

And P.S. the new episode of Lost was awesome!! =D

I wrote. For the first time in fuckin' ages.

I did a meme recently where you had to write for the first five random songs that came on your playlist. And I liked it so much I basically did it again.

I wanted to write 5 sex scenes featuring Deron Miller, based on 5 songs. And they ended up coming around full circle. I've never done one of those '5 things/times' fic memes either, so this is also one of those.

I've put snippets of the lyrics at the start of each drabble, and I would strongly recommend finding downloads for the songs because I am biased and think my taste in music is fantastic, hah. The titles are the song titles, I've credited the bands after the lyrics.

You should possibly expect more of these. I love music and I love tortured!Deron and I love that this combination has got me writing fic again!

And yes, I did stay up until 4.30am finishing and posting these. Feedback, therfore, would be gorgeous. Even if Deron doesn't do it for you, I just want to know that I can still write decently enough. Cheers.

x-posted to my journal and cky_band_fic

Title: Even If You Want Me To: Five Times Deron Was Almost Saved.
Pairings/characters: Chad/Deron, Jess/Deron, Tim Yeung/Deron, Felissa/Deron. Slash and het.
Genre: Sex and a shitload of angst.
Rating: Overall, NC-17 for sex.
Word Count: 1,000, broken up into 5 200-word sections

( There's a devil waiting outside your door... )

I might actually buy some CDs this year! It's a tricky thing though, since now that I can hook my iPod up through my hifi speakers, I literally don't listen to music on CD any more.

Buttt...the new Arsis tracks are fucking killer. And Death Cab have a new album out this year. And there's the possibility of a new Swallow The Sun (they've given us a title for it so presumably it's near enough completion for a 2008 release). And all 3 of these bands, I've not spent a dime on so far, it's all been downloaded. And they're 3 bands I would really like to support because they're all amazing...STS especially right now are my favourite band, I've been playing them almost non-stop lately and after Helldone and everything, I really feel like I should support them monetarily! I know one album sale doesn't make a difference but it's the principle, ya know? My favourite band, they make music that I absolutely adore.

So yeah, I might buy these albums and, well, once they're on my iPod the CDs might as well be drinks coasters to be honest. But what the hell.

Oh, I spoke to my mummy who fixes all things, and once again I feel better because no duh, I'm crazy about my boyfriend and it just scares me shitless, is all. Don't let anyone ever tell you that love is easy, kids. It's the hardest and most complicated thing you will ever go through.

Connie's Top 5 Reasons Why The Current British Music Scene Sucks A Fat One:

5. Razorlight - America
This song just doesn't tell me anything new, anything that I couldn't just think myself. It doesn't stir any feelings at all inside me, apart from indifference. It's slightly too trite, it's just a bit of a non-song, from a band that everyone raves over. Go figure.

4. The Zutons - Valerie
I don't like this band anyway, but this song is just...boring. And to make it even worse there are now two versions or something. First of all I don't like naming the song after a name, it sucks. The lyrics, again, could have been written by a dyslexic five-year-old. Or a monkey. 'And I miss your ginger hair/And the way you like to dress'...who misses ginger hair, lol. Musically this is just dullsville. Ugh.

3. The Hoosiers - Worried About Ray
The first time I heard this song, I thought "Jeez, Fallout Boy have let their standards slip a bit!" Yup. I don't understand the lyrics at all, and not in a good way. It's a song designed to be instantly catchy but it has no staying power. It's got that fucking almost-bouncy mid-tempo thing going on again, rhythmically it's the same through the whole song, and I'm sorry but the singer really is trying to be Patrick Stump. So this gets a big thumbs down from me.

2. Scouting For Girls - Elvis Ain't Dead
What can I say? The lyrics are fucking abysmal to this song. 'Since you've been gone I can do what I like/But it doesn't mean a lot to me'...this is love-by-numbers. And the Elvis thing? Cheesy as all fucking hell, not to mention a cheap gimmic. I have heard this song once and I already know the fucking tune and most of the words. It has all the complexity and subtlety of a cricket bat to the solar plexus. And oh my God I hate this new fad for singing with a slightly working class accent, like that ups your fucking street cred you moron! Also just realised these are the culprits behind the sickening She's So Lovely - word boys, just because there's a 'twist' in the lyrics (zomg the girl has a boyfriend NEVAR WOULD HAVE GUESSED!!) doesn't make it a complex or indeed a good song!

1. The Feeling - Fill My Little World, and Never Be Lonely, and I Love It When You Call.
After searching You Tube I have realised that 3 of my most hated songs right now are all by this fucking band. I think that The Feeling are single-handedly trying to destroy everything that has ever been good about popular music. Lyrically their songs make me want to cry. For God's sake have some creativity with your words! It's not hard! This is supposed to be poetry, not a fucking diary entry that's not a very interesting one at that! And there are more than 3 chords, you just have to look for them! The tempo, this middle-of-the-road plodding thing, coupled with the awful lyrics it's just so twee, I mean you couldn't dance to this but you couldn't cry to it either, it's just...splat. It's got zero charm. It's slimy and uninteresting and tasteless, and I hate this band, I really really fucking do.

Ta ta!

Part of Connie's Melancholic Playlist:

Death Cab For Cutie - We Laugh Indoors
So I breed thicker skin and let my lustrous coat fill in
But I'll never admit
That I loved you Guinevere, I loved you Guinevere, I loved you

Anathema - Electricity
Electricity, it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me

HIM - Love You Like I Do
And there's no escape, just countless mistakes
No one will love you
No one will love you the way I do

AFI - The Leaving Song
Hard to notice gleaming from the sky
When you're staring at the cracks
Hard to notice what is passing by
With eyes lowered

Jimmy Eat World - Cautioners
I watch you go from left to right
I follow you all night across my blinds

My Bloody Valentine - Sometimes
Close my eyes, feel me now
I don't know how you could not love me now

The Smiths - Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want
So for once in my life, let me get what I want
Lord knows it would be the first time

Foo Fighters - Walking After You
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you

All of these songs make me feel empty inside. All of these songs make me lower my head and gaze forlornly out of windows and walk really slowly. All of these songs make me feel like it really should be raining. All of these songs make me yearn for something to fill the void <3

Scratch what I said last night, I clearly am quite crushed. At times, anyway. And I don't want to be told why it wouldn't have worked. I just want to be told that what I know is wrong. That dreams can still come true...

I really, REALLY like World Under Blood. Both the metal fan in me and the CKY fan in me rejoice over this band. They dance around in a circle together bouncing and squealing and shouting "WE LOVE YOU DERON MILLER!" actually, but anyway.

The new song Under The Autumn Low is kind of beautiful. I'll be honest, when I first read the lyrics I thought they were really disgustingly emo. Not what I would expect from Deron. But I've been reading them a lot lately and there is something wonderful about them...melancholic and yet visceral, with that almost mechanised Deron edge that he always has. I love the line "a poison chosen, polluting the essence to be" as a way of describing (I assume) anti-depressants. I also adore "my pulse is racing to the freeze of the breeze".

Musically it is a strange beast. The lyrics are so crushingly sad ("living in chains without the words to explain"...my Deron really is a man held back by fear, we Geminis must be one of a kind) and yet musically it is a very upbeat and fast song. Think of cheery sounding CKY songs like Familiar Realm and Plastic Plan, and that's the musical tone of this song. But it works because it has an edge to it, a subtle hint at a minor key (I'm guessing) and a touch of pathos that makes it work. The pace is relentlessly pummelling.

I am so so glad that Deron is doing solos on this project because he really gets to show off his ability. The solo alternates between Deron and James Murphy (who I still want to slash kthxbai) but I can't tell where the breaks are, which is frustrating for me but holy shit, it means Deron is as good at shredding as James Murphy, legendary death metal guitarist!

The song feels short, maybe because of the driving rhythm and pace. It's like a brief blast of cold autumn air and then it is gone as abruptly as it began. It makes me grin goofily. Deron actually laid off of the octave pedal for most of this one! That makes me a very happy bunny.

World Under Blood really is like "what if CKY did melodic death metal?", so fans of both CKY and melodeath should find little to complain about. Under The Autumn Low is probably the heaviest track of the 3 so far purely because it contains less clean vocals and less slower guitar parts than the other 2. This is quite an experimental project though and so far I am more than happy with all 3 songs. They all make me ridiculously happy listening to them. You all should go and listen, too =)

Deron Miller, I would do anything to be the mother of your children instead of Felissa, but sadly I was born in the wrong country and the wrong decade. Thems the breaks. But since she is a Gemini and so am I, I can still imagine that we could have worked together. And maybe one day, I will find a Deron Miller of my very own. But you will always be #1 in my heart <3

...and I so won't be able to sleep because I have this riff bouncing around inside my head and my mind is so hyper over it...gah. I need to chill! It's 12.45am!

Everyone keeps telling me that I've lost weight, but I haven't at all. Huh.

Going back to Uni hopefully this weekend...I'm still really scared about a lot of things. But I have to go back sometime! I just realised that I was supposed to sign some form way back in May and I don't think I ever did...I hope it doesn't fuck anything up, I still seem to be enrolled for all the right things...

Me and my mum were talking about what star signs our favourite Winchester boys would be, and at first I was like "Well Dean's obviously an earth sign and Sam is an air sign", then she said "No, Sam is more like a Cancer" and I was all "Well Jared Padalecki is a Cancer" then we decided that Dean is really more of a Pisces and duh, Ackles is a Pisces. So I concluded that they must be shitty actors as they are just playing themselves, haha. Although it's more my mother that puts Dean as a Pisces, I still think earth sign...how irrelevent to anything, haha.

I'm kind of burning myself out on the new HIM album and it isn't even officially out yet! (except in Finland from today.) I better stop listening to it now...

OMG, old CKY shit! I lost all of this stuff ages ago and now I have it back! Oil, omfg! It might just be that time of the month, but Deron's vocals on 'Drag Me Down' are strangely sexy... and omg, This End Up Myspace, videos of teenage Deron singing and he's wearing shorts and fucking bouncing and squeeeee! I need to find the time and space to sit down and properly watch these things and just melt over them. It suddenly feels like I have no time since tomorrow is for packing and once in Lancaster I don't even know if I'll have the internet straight away and my laptop up there needs fixing and there are books I don't have yet and and and...bah! Not enough time to rediscover all of this great music! OMG, Death's 'Leprosy' album! And and and My Dying Bride! I haven't heard 'The Dreadful Hours' in forever and I downloaded it so now it's on my iPooooood, which hates me because I overuse and abuse it but I <3 it like woah...major downloading kick today because I got so sick of not having half my music. Only 2 or 3 Opeth and MDB albums = insanely wrong. So now I have more =P

Ville & Deron fic has been cut down, still over 2000 words but it's neater. Now it still needs a total re-write to make it, you know, better. And since it has Ville Valo in it, and he is a lot more popular than Deron Miller, I'm gonna be sneaky and join Ville slash comms to pimp it out =P

oiL songs do make me stupidly happy. Deron doing happy poppy music! What the hell is not to like? =D *dances*