I wrote. For the first time in fuckin' ages.

I did a meme recently where you had to write for the first five random songs that came on your playlist. And I liked it so much I basically did it again.

I wanted to write 5 sex scenes featuring Deron Miller, based on 5 songs. And they ended up coming around full circle. I've never done one of those '5 things/times' fic memes either, so this is also one of those.

I've put snippets of the lyrics at the start of each drabble, and I would strongly recommend finding downloads for the songs because I am biased and think my taste in music is fantastic, hah. The titles are the song titles, I've credited the bands after the lyrics.

You should possibly expect more of these. I love music and I love tortured!Deron and I love that this combination has got me writing fic again!

And yes, I did stay up until 4.30am finishing and posting these. Feedback, therfore, would be gorgeous. Even if Deron doesn't do it for you, I just want to know that I can still write decently enough. Cheers.

x-posted to my journal and cky_band_fic

Title: Even If You Want Me To: Five Times Deron Was Almost Saved.
Pairings/characters: Chad/Deron, Jess/Deron, Tim Yeung/Deron, Felissa/Deron. Slash and het.
Genre: Sex and a shitload of angst.
Rating: Overall, NC-17 for sex.
Word Count: 1,000, broken up into 5 200-word sections

( There's a devil waiting outside your door... )

For fanfic100, fandom CKY, character Deron Miller. Slash and het.

Ratings range from PG-13 for language to NC-17 for graphic sex.

This is a series of connected ficlets, detailing the relationship between Deron and Jess Margera. The timeline begins around 2003 and ends at the end of 2005. Where possible, I have tried to write as true to real life events as possible, although I have taken some liberties. That said, it doesn't matter if I've fucked up some of the timings, so you don't need to point it out if I'm a month off with when people got married etc.

These fics also contain Kelly, Jess' wife, and Felissa, Deron's wife. I don't know anything about them but where I've written them, I've tried to play nice and not make them into bitches. I hope I've succeeded.

When the table is finished I will post the order of the fics beneath. Each fic will contain links to the previous and next fic in the series.

You don't have to read them in order, but it helps =)

001.	Beginnings.	002.	Middles.	003.	Ends.	004.	Insides.	005.	Outsides.
006.	Hours.	007.	Days.	008.	Weeks.	009.	Months.	010.	Years.
011.	Red.	012.	Orange.	013.	Yellow.	014.	Green.	015.	Blue.
016.	Purple.	017.	Brown.	018.	Black.	019.	White.	020.	Colourless.
021.	Friends.	022.	Enemies.	023.	Lovers.	024.	Family.	025.	Strangers.
026.	Teammates.	027.	Parents.	028.	Children.	029.	Birth.	030.	Death.
031.	Sunrise.	032.	Sunset.	033.	Too Much.	034.	Not Enough.	035.	Sixth Sense.
036.	Smell.	037.	Sound.	038.	Touch.	039.	Taste.	040.	Sight.
041.	Shapes.	042.	Triangle.	043.	Square.	044.	Circle.	045.	Moon.
046.	Star.	047.	Heart.	048.	Diamond.	049.	Club.	050.	Spade.
051.	Water.	052.	Fire.	053.	Earth.	054.	Air.	055.	Spirit.
056.	Breakfast.	057.	Lunch.	058.	Dinner.	059.	Food.	060.	Drink.
061.	Winter.	062.	Spring.	063.	Summer.	064.	Fall.	065.	Passing.
066.	Rain.	067.	Snow.	068.	Lightening.	069.	Thunder.	070.	Storm.
071.	Broken.	072.	Fixed.	073.	Light.	074.	Dark.	075.	Shade.
076.	Who?	077.	What?	078.	Where?	079.	When?	080.	Why?
081.	How?	082.	If.	083.	And.	084.	He.	085.	She.
086.	Choices.	087.	Life.	088.	School.	089.	Work.	090.	Home.
091.	Birthday.	092.	Christmas.	093.	Thanksgiving.	094.	Independence.	095.	New Year.
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.

N.B. It's unlikely I'll update this again until I've finished the entire 100 as each new one I write affects whether I need to re-write any earlier ones. So if there's nothing new it doesn't mean I'm slacking, it just means I'm being a perfectionist and cursing myself for deciding to tie all of the fics together.